Why...

Q: Why are you doing this to yourself? DO your paper. You have to just elaborate on your paragraphs.

S: Yeah, I know. But I just don't care, you know?

Q: Yeah....no.

S: Yes you do. It seems a little pointless, all my homework does.

Q: But you have to do it. The sooner you get it done, the more free time you have.

S: Yeah I know. Shut up. I'm tired of hearing that. It's not that easy. I get distracted. I miss my friends.

Q: Call them.

S: Well, mostly I miss Meghan and Ryan. I talked to them most. And I talk to them now. But I shouldn't talk to them all the time. They have their own lives to live. I need to live mine.

Q: Don't stress yourself out about it... maybe you took too much on this semester....

S: Honestly, It's not that the work is hard but that it takes me so long to do it. I wish I knew what I would enjoy working on to feel motivated...really I'm just lazy.

Q: Hmmm....

S: Yet another thing I wonder about. Do I do stuff I am capable of, like hard math, and don't mind doing or should I find work that I actually enjoy and may not be as good at? Does it matter? Can ANYONE answer that?

Q: Well, I can't.

S: Psh. Some help. I thought typing all of this out might help. Really I think I'm just procrastinating.

Q: You are. But you are also thinking about things to make them better in your mind. That is a good thing.

S: You know what would be a good thing. People. People who I can identify with. I was hoping for there to be a Hawaii club or something I could join. It may sound stupid but I do feel like I belong there. I didn't spend my whole life there but I spent the most important time there. 2nd-4th grade is when you learn what's right and wrong and what feels right in the world and from 8th-10th grade you learn who you are and want to be. The other years are just the fun ones. I don't regret any experiences. I enjoyed moving. But the only place I've ever wanted to go back to was Hawaii. That is my home.

Q: Why do you think that is?

S: I think it has to do with the way that people act and think. They do things not just for them. They try and involve others and just, aloha. This sounds stupid.

Q: Nah, It makes sense.

S: Even overseas most kids seemed to have some personal motive for just about everything and anything they did. It's the same here. Which also sounds bad...but it's the way things come off..

Q: Makes sense. You should call that other girl from your school.

S: What would I even talk about?

Q: Does it matter? She probably feels kind of like you do, even if she does have her team. She did call you back first.

S: Great. Now I feel like a jerk for not responding sooner. I'll call tonight. I gotta finish this I suppose.

Q: Yes. Finish that paper. Quickly.

S: Sure. Later gator.

Q: Ciao.