The Good Comes With the Bad...

Sunday night was nice, I like getting coffee with people I enjoy talking to and being with...

Monday was pretty awesome, we went to the Missouri, the Air Museum and the Bowfin... cool stuff. I think it is awesome that there are so many people willing to serve the country from such cramped places...

Tuesday was a good day in all, but I hate the fact that it was the Senior's last day, not only because they don't have to come to class, but that I am going to miss them, but I am glad I still have a month to spend with them, so it isn't really that final... but it still hurts...

Busy...

Yesterday was pretty cool, I got to meet my dad's old neighbors..very cool people, really nice and then I went to Spotlight!

This year I wasn't as hyped as last year, It was the same way as Cinderella, maybe cause it's not new to me anymore, I don't know... But I got a Ruby! YAY! and Category winner! APA got so many awards! Shelby and Shelby owned! I give them major major smiley points! lol...do not ask me what those are, I just made them up. Lexi was singing "On My Own" and made me cry, she is SO GOOD! And of course the usual Colby and Shyanne won their diamonds, but this year was Lexi's first and he sang so well with so much emotion, it was just amazing...

Today I have been cleaning and working on tons of homework!!!! ARG! Don't teachers realize they can let up on the load cause the year is almost done?! Oh well, only English homework left...

I'll make this short...

I have to get ready for SPOTLIGHT so I am going to have to make this short...

Thursday...
After school I had a meeting for our English project, went VERY well... we actually got stuff done! Then I went to the awards assembly and got Outstanding Social Studies student! Woot! But actually, I don't know why, my essay this year about two major national problems was really bad, I wrote about standarized education and the lack of support for military efforts...

Friday...
Was a very long day for me but it went by fast... I had school and then after that I got to sit and talk to "someone" (Happy? I put someone in quotes for you) for an hour which was nice, but really made me realize how much I am going to miss people when I leave... Then I had Drivers Ed, where we were working on turns and I ran over a dead bird, at least I hope it was already dead... and I am never going to be allowed to forget that... Then I had a final spotlight rehearsal, so I hope I am ready... And then on the way home, we stopped to make an appointment to get my hair cut and ended up doing it right then and then going to Ross and finding a Ziggys dress for me... its a purty light blue color, but it is reallybig so we will have to take it in... then I went to sleep...

Saturday...
I have to go downtown to visit Dad's old neighbors and then perform at Spotlight! Wish me luck! We start at 6:05, and I am already all ready (mentally, I am not even out of my PJs physically)! Oh! And we get TEAM JACKETS! Mines a little small, they got the sizes mixed up, but it looks SO COOL! Ok, I'm going now... Wish me luck!

Rain...

It was perfectly sunny this morning, what happened?! Ah, I don't mind, I love the rain. I love the puddles and the raindrops and rain in people's hair and the smell of rain...everything about it...

Yay! For chemistry! And understanding it! And for cutting Styrofoam with a hot wire machine!

I actually want to go back to school to be with my friends and play in the rain...

Bring on the rain!

I wonder why people dislike the rain, all it does is get you wet, how is that any different from swimming? What they do need to make are waterproof books so I can sit and read in the rain without worrying about ruining my books...

Being sick is bad...

Even though I am sick I can still belt a high D! :) But I feel really bad about sneezing and coughing on people all day... so yeah...

I have finished my English archery presentation so now there is only one left and that is pretty much the end of any hard work for this school year... It is kinda scary that it is the end of the year. It went by so fast. At times I thought it was not so great, the good things completely outweigh the bad, as much as I love to complain, I am still alive and doing fine....so that must mean something. I give props to everyone who has almost finished school, school is hard. But there are fun things, friends, parties (like the awesome one we had today...lots of junk food and only 10 people!), drama, recess, and lunch, and learning something new and releavant.

Driving is good, i just hate having people point out every sign and every mistake and every imaginary situation possible..lol... well, goodnight all, I am going to sleep and look forward to a fairly stress free day tomorrow...

What if I do know what I want...

Today I woke up with a sore throat and the first thing I thought was "I seriously hope that I am better by Saturday..." My second thought was that I was going to spread my icky germs and get other people sick, despite whatever they think. Chemistry was confusing but I get it now so that makes me happy, English test on Othello went....okay... (I laugh in the face of danger...Hahaha!) I am doing alright in Spanish, and math too, despite my lovely grade on the test... And History, well, it is awesome right now because we sit there for an hour playing with flour! :)

I spent the day thinking bout what someone said to me today, "what do you want?" What they were really asking, I don't know and I probably should have; but I thought about the question. And what if I do know what I want, does that help me at all? What if i know what i want but also know i can't have it? What if I think I have what I want, but don't know how to handle it? I really should stop all this thinking, it makes me sound all emo and depressed... and I'm not, I am constantly singing and skipping and dancing in circles and being really hyper... ya, I don't think I'm emo. Maybe I am when I'm sick though... I think its the weather that's really messing with me...

And my falling in the ditch was totally not the fault of anyone but me... I should have stepped away from the ditch instead of in it... :)

I want to write a letter, but in the times of blogs and email, it is not very practical... But writing with a great pen on stationery and then sealing it with wax and seal is so much better than email, well, I don't know... both have their uses...

I want to go shooting with a bow and arrow... there is something so rewarding about hearing the arrow hit the target...

I want to be done with homework, so I better go start on it now...
:)

The Weekend of many days...

This weekend seems like it is one hundred days packed into one!

On Friday, I had a dress rehearsal for Spolight... crazy talented people are performing... really fun to watch...

Saturday, I woke up got my yearbook went down to this free day at the marina, went to my sister's ballet recietal and then went to the tack meet, where they did an AWESOME job! The track people are amazing, what they do is mindblowing and they do not even know it, they run as fast as cars...wow.... and they just make it look so easy...

Today isn't even over yet and I have already done drivers ed and now I am off to babysit... and then finish my project and my essay... i am telling you, English will be the death of me!

I am impatient...

Too often I find myself not knowing what I want or knowing exactly what I want but being afraid to get it, never the less i want things to happen... I want to go places and see things, but am afraid to miss out on other things. So i am impatient and indecisive, great qualities, i know. Aint I fantastic.


Today I woke up feeling good about having everything done, AP stuff and homework that was due. Then I froze in English and had to listen to complainers. Recess was good, math test was bad, lunch was good, science was boring and history was trying. This was all topped off by having flour thrown at me and falling in a ditch because i have absolutely no balance.



I miss drama, and the feeling i get when i go up there and put on a good show... like i am doing something worthwhile. I need that feeling and I don't get it often enough. It seems that most of high school is pointless busy work. I am fine with learning about history and math, but what we are doing with it seems pointless to me. Chemistry is the only class I enjoy, everything we do in there has a point and i can see that point because everywhere you look there is Chemistry, but seriously, when does one see imaginary numbers in the real world.

Tomorrow marks two months left...

Today was forever long, AP test and then a strange assembly...
High Schoolers are a scary species...
As I was telling my friends watching the lipsynch with me, if spazzing out in time to music makes you cool, well, darn it, I am cool too! Lol. :)
English will be the death of me now that AP is pretty much done, I have tons of stuff to do for my archery project and have not even touched the stuff for the project on 19th century Bristish lit. Ew.